I am such a lucky girl. In fairy tales the princess always lives happily ever after. In the first few weeks after my wedding, I felt just like the princess. Xander and I couldn’t leave our jobs to go on a honeymoon. But we had a great time anyway.
Xander was so surprised when I showed him two tickets for the big football game. He loved to gamble on sports but I convinced him not to bet on this game. I explained to him that he would enjoy it so much more if he wasn’t worried about losing money. We had a blast.
But eventually the fun settled down into a domestic routine. I was not very good at wifely duties. Every morning, I tried to make a good breakfast for Xander when he got home but I usually ended up with a burned mess.
Xander had parties all the time. Whenever I came home from the Science Lab, I was sure to find the Notorious Crew throwing it down. Xander had a going away party for Junior Notorious that lasted three days!
I couldn’t believe how sick I was. I stayed in the bathroom a very long time. Actually, I had been getting sick a lot. Especially after I ate egg rolls. But as soon as I emptied my stomach, I was ready for more egg rolls.
Xander wasn’t expecting to come home to a filthy house. He rummaged around in the refrigerator for awhile.
Xander: Baby….ummmm, well, uh…do you think we should hire a maid to clean up the house?
I was watching a movie that I had seen a thousand times. I knew exactly what was going to happen. But I couldn’t bear to hear Xander talking in the background. He started to speak again and I made a loud shushing noise.
When the camera zoomed in to show the couple kissing on their wedding day, I lost it. Tears started pouring down my face and I started to sob hysterically. I jumped up, turned off the tv, ran into our bedroom and threw myself face down on the rumpled covers.
Xander approached the door and knocked tentatively.
Xander: Baby, are you okay?
I flew out of the bedroom in a rage.
Baby: Is this what you want, Xander? Fine! Its not enough that I have to work all day and then spend my nights alone while you are out doing crimes, is it? Fine! I’ll clean the house!
I started staying at work later and later. I would do anything to avoid going home. I was confused about the way I was feeling. Xander was my husband and I loved him but the sight of him made my blood boil.
It wasn’t just Xander that felt my wrath. One day I spotted Molly French, Pater’s ex-girlfriend. She came up to me and asked if I knew anything about Pater. Molly thought he had just vanished into thin air.
I knew Molly had really hurt Pater and now was the time to get her back.
Baby: Didn’t you hear, Molly? He was so heartbroken, he decided to kill himself!
Then I spent the rest of the night hacking the computer. It wasn’t about the money anymore, Xander and I had plenty. It was about making people miserable and feeling good about it. But I was taking chances I shouldn’t have taken and it is a miracle I wasn’t arrested.
Grand asked me to meet him at the Pier. I could tell right away that he was very concerned.
Freya had a talk with me as well. I was making a lot of mistakes at the Science Lab and she wanted to know why I was so distracted. I confided everything in her: fights with Xander, feeling sick all the time, not being able to control my emotions.
Freya: Baby, don’t you know what this means?
Baby: That I’m going crazy?
Freya: I should have guessed when we went swimming. I thought maybe you might have put on a little weight.
She took me straight to the pharmacy and we bought a pregnancy test. I was in shock. How could I have a baby, wasn’t I the baby? I told Freya I wasn’t ready to find out the results but I would call her as soon as I knew.
I sat at the kitchen table with the unopened package in front of me. Finally, I couldn’t stand it anymore. I ripped open the box and took the contents into the bathroom. Minutes later, I knew. Freya was right, I was pregnant!
Xander ate his food very quietly and then smiled at me in a knowing way. He got up from the table and went to the bar to make a drink.
Baby: Xander, I have something really important–
He came over and hugged me tightly.
Xander: Let’s call Simmibea and tell Pater our good news.
I couldn’t believe that my husband knew me better than I knew myself. I loved him more now than I ever did. I wasn’t sure if I was capable of being a good mother but his sake and the baby’s sake, I was going to try very hard.
I got up early the next day and made some more egg rolls. As soon as I finished off the plate, I was sick all over again. But I was too happy to care. Later, I would see Lorcus for an exam but I knew he was going to confirm the pregnancy test. I was so, so nervous but excited, too. A baby for Baby! I was a very lucky girl.